Friday, September 29, 2006

Sum 41- There's no solution

maybe nothing else will ever be so clear
or maybe thats only my fear
If just for one day I wish I could disappear
Just take me far from here


the constant pressure that keeps hanging over me
it makes me feel so empty
its more than anything that I could ever be
what else could you take from me
its getting harder to relate
dont want to make the same mistake
theres no solution
give me truth to my conviction
is my own confusion
reality or fiction
am I out of my mind?


it took me so long to find out
its right there in front of me
too close to see
what i thought was true
i see right through...


Sunday, September 24, 2006

Yayyy!!!!...

Cedar's one of the two schools to receive the "Top Award for Excellence" this year!
The other is Raffles Girls'.

I am so proud of you Cedar!!
It's on Channel News Asia!! And Yi Ning's Comments are on news! Mr Suresh too!!.. :PP
3 Cheers for Cedar!!
Hip hip hooooooraay!!

Hold high the banner gold and grey

I guess the gold and grey hasn't really wash off me yet.
And it never will.

Red and Yellow,
Gold and Grey.

Three Cheers for Cedar Hip hip Hooooraay!!!

Friday, September 22, 2006

Fis

He she is made

He she becomes

It is done...

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

I walk the maze of moments
but everywhere I turn to
begins a new beginning
but never finds a finish
I walk to the horizon
and there I find another
it all seems so surprising
and then I find that I know...

You go there you're gone forever
I go there I'll lose my way
if we stay here we're not together
Anywhere is...

The moon upon the ocean is swept around in motion
but without ever knowing
the reason for its flowing, in motion on the ocean, the moon still keeps on moving
the waves still keep on waving
and I still keep on going

I wonder if the stars sign
the life that is to be mine
and would they let their light shine
enough for me to follow
I look up to the heavens
but night has clouded over,
no spark of constellation
no Vela, no Orion

The shells upon the warm sands
have taken from their own lands
the echo of their story, but all I hear are low sounds
as pillow words are weaving
and willow waves are leaving
but should I be believing
That I am only dreaming

To leave the thread of all time
and let it make a dark line
in hopes that I can still find
the way back to the moment
I took the turn and turned to
begin a new beginning
still looking for the answer
I cannot find the finish

It's either this or that way
it's one way or the other
it should be one direction
it could be on reflection-the turn I have just taken, the turn that I was making


I might be just beginning

I might be near the end.

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Went to watch "The Host" with my family at 12 midnight today at PlzaSing, second time, for a second movie at the same place in 3 days O.o

One word: CRAP

Now you know why they say Korean movies are draggy...
I mean?!?
The entire movie revolved around killing a river mutant and saving this girl, and the thing was so repetitive.
That's not it though, there are 3 main reason why I think the movie stinks to the core.

1) It's so unrealistic. The aunt of the girl fell into this drain when persuing the monster, slept there for dayS before waking up and then as if nothng happened, continued chasing the monster. Besides, if chemical deposits into the Han river resulted in a mutated tadpole, shouldn't there be more than one?!
And then, how is a girl to survive more than 4-5 days without food, and still be able to run, talk and jump? Okay at least she died in the end...

2)It has such anti-climax parts. I can't count the number of times it cheated my feelings, I mean, if they wanted to inject humour, compromising on such promising parts is definitely not the way to go. Like, the uncle was about to kill the monster, by throwing this flaming bottle at it, when the moster was already successfully covered in kerosene, then he threw... and the bottle actually just fell from his hands at his feet -_-" And I how many times has the aunt released the arrow too late and failed to kill the monster I can't bother counting...

3)It's got such a disappointing ending. So in the end? The girl just died. Died. Without any last words. Nothing. Then this boy who was also a victim became the guy's adopted son. So "cheh."

3 reasons the movie was only mediocre. My mum'd say 4.
The movie was in Korean---english subtitles.
Either the translator's english sucked, or Koreans have a obsession with the "F word"
The "F word" appeared about 4 times every 10 lines!!
Words like "zao gao (oh no)" or "can le (we are done for)" were all translated as ****
It was ALL over the place.
My mum was livid.
My brother was amused.
I was O.o

There's something about the F word that the Chinese, Koreans and Japanese love.
I almost died laughing when I once saw what was printed on a box containing a kettle my mum brought from China on a business trip.
In chinese, it was something along the lines of "when the water boils, the kettle switches itself off automatically". It came out like this in English:

"Having no the water ****s to burn"

Hilarious.

Above this was yet another point about how the kettle is 1350 Ws.
"The stainless steel 1350 Ws has fever the dish"

The kettle is easy to use came out as:
"edibility PP kettle"

and a huge 1.5l capacity came out as:
"1.5 rise the super andbig capacity"

What kind of conjugated piece of shit is that?!?!
Hurhur.
Watching "Mr and Mrs Smith" on DVD with my family now...

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

So today is my birthday!! :P
I am now 15!!!!
Yayyy.... no more aunties coming around to say " oh my...so young!!! hahahaha!! " *pinches cheeks* -_-"
I am officially mature!! :P Well, I hope... getting there at least.

Well, today began with the evangelistic session, and it was more than just fun, I guess I learnt a lot today, especially from "Mr. animated speaker" and we even have our cell groups now!! Haha... "W.E.P?" I still think "P.E.W" sounds better! lol. What a great way to start off the new year! May I grow ever stronger in the lord, and learn to give others light with my beacon burning bright.

After that it was movies with Althea and Alicea,we watched "Akeelah and the Bee!" It was a really meaningful show, well, maybe not as nice as "The Emperor's Club", nor "Les Choristes," but definitely one of the more value laden ones... Because we were the 3 out of the 30+ people in the theatre, there was a lot of enthusiasm within this small audience, and we cheered and clapped along the way. There was this really hilarious part that got us all engulfed in uncontrollable laughter, till the point that we had to be hushed! It was a wonderful movie experience on the whole, and here is a meaningful quote in it that struck a chord with all of us:

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are we not to be?......
It's not just in some of us, it is in everyone. And as we let our light shine, we unconsciously allow others to do the same. As we are liberated from our fears, our presence automatically liberates others."

How beautiful a quote! And how lucky a person I realise I am today, to be showered by well-wishes and gifts---not so much that they are the pre-requisite for happiness, but they meant that people remembered and cared enough to go out of their way for a little surprise. No matter how small, how big, or whatever it was, thanks to all of you who sent me sms-es, well-wishes and gifts- I am very happy, very touched.
While all my presents deserve mention, here are 3 that stood out.

1) The bib, yes BIB alicea gave me. -_-" O.0
and here was how she presented it to me:
" here's something that I really owe you for such a long time!"
(O.o!! what is it?!?!?! [At the edge of my seat])
"here" *hands bag over*
(Oh my!!! What is it?!? * tears bag open excitedly*)
The next moment: "What?!?!?!" * faints*
Haha... we had been teasing each other for ages about not being able to keep ourselves curry or gravy free during meals! Hahahaha... I got the shock of my life!!... it took a while before I could register the yellow-rimmed cloth that greeted me as my mood swung on a pendulum, to the other extreme!

2) The white collection by althea. -_-"" O.o It comprised of:
Soya milk, tissue, pumkin seeds, chinese ink holder, flour O.o, Vodavoda water....all of which were white, in a white bag.
Rather creative I'd say, haha, I had said that white was my favourite colour, hahaha... My mum's reaction when she saw the big bag of white I brought home was:
"What's this?"
and she laughed for a full 3 minutes non-stop while I revealed the contents of the bag!

3) The ahem* Chow food scoop -_-""" O.o by Alicea, May, Debby, Grace, Jolyn, Jingjing, Jie Min, and Pu En!!
Can you imagine the shock I received when a DOG FOODSCOOP greeted me, when I had so excitedly tore open the wrapper with trembling fingers?! At least it wasn't what I thought to be-- a bone!! Hahaha... what was so coincidental was that I hapen to be wearing a shirt with a dog on it, and had even brought along a jumper with yet another dog on it!! What am I supposed to do? eat out of it?! O.o that'd make me a *****!! HAHAHA... but my aunt figured we could use it as a salad mix!! Yayy!!

Thanks you guys for all the thoughtful gifts! And thank you all rifle ppl too for the avalanche of sms-es!! :P

I had a really happy birthday today :)

Sunday, September 03, 2006

Oh Calamity!!!

I manslaughtered my phone!...
And manslaughter is the word, cos there's a fine line between intentional murder, and well, manslaughter, though I'd say it's the issue of the better worse, but that's a story for another time.

So... today was Family3 day, went to man the AR booth, guess we spent most of the time playing with those toy guns ourselves.
Talk about goofy moments! DuJing, Fang Xiao, Esmond, Debby and I were chasing each other in a "whack-your-opponent-on-the-head-with-a-balloon! game -_-" should have seen us running around like a bunch of neverland escapades! Sheesh... the things we do sometimes, yeah but that deserves a smiley :D haha.

Unfortunately, calamity struck at 1347hrs, when "Debby and co." decided I look better dripping wet and gracefully invited me up on "Uncle Ringo." Naturally, I was against the idea of turning my garments translucent, and diplomatically declined their generous offer. The clash of ideals escalated into a tussle. The 15 min resistence ended up with me "walking the plank," or rather, more accurately, sitting the plank. Povero Pauvre!

As I sat edgily on the plank, I was beginning to wonder why I hadn't seek refuge in the blissful toilet cubicles.
Okay...! Let's get this clear.
I hope you do not imagine the water to be pleasantly clean, and warm.
1) It was murky
2) There were bits and pieces of twigs, leaves and god-knows-what floating around, beckoning warmly to you
3)The water was nothing short of an icy cold status
4) It was salty (as I went on to realise, when I embraced the water)

Yes. And please. I wasn't dunked. No..no...don't use inaccurate, degradatory terms, I fell in myself. -_-" If that is any less degradatory...In any case, any word is fine, as long as it is made clear that Miss Debby Ling did not have the honour,nor credit of having directly cause my fall into the water. heh.
Well. And so Miss Debby Ling swung her mighty arms and had the ball flying at the target beam. She couldn't have been more accurate.
(eh debby? Now you'd wish you were as accurate during trainings -_-"). To cut the long story short, the plank wobbled as a result of Debby's miraculous hit, and at the instance, I changed my mind.
That wobble brought me to my senses, and I thought "Are you nuts?!? You are going to get wet!!"And at the back of my head rang loud and clear---Debby's maniac, victorious laughter.

That did it, I jolted and screamed as I frantically tried to clamber back up onto "safe grounds".I realised immediately the reason "Uncle Ringo" had high slimy walls as I lost my footage, wobbled and ... The next second saw my screams muffled abruptly and rudely as my face kissed and embraced the delightful aqueous entity. As I clambered out of the tank, I realised everyone was guffawing. Hee-ing and haw-ing like a bunch of donkeys... moments later, my sheer stupidity recoiled with bewail contempt for my folly, and I felt like a donkey. So much for "entertainment for charity" as dear Debby would put it.

It was only after all the hulabaloo that I realised I had my phone in my pocket!!!
Adjectives here only serve to prove the frailty of language, so I shan't attempt.
All vital signs had ceased.
Hell, on the other hand, was just about to unfold.
Any illusion I had of my mum flashing me a smile and offering to get me a new phone evaporated when she plainly told me to start reading up on how people communicated in the 19th century.
"huh? Why?"
"Cos, you are going to have to learn to live likewise."
:(

Mum's policy:
Action=Reaction
Cause=Effect
I had gotten my current phone, because I had proved to be very careless with my belongings.
The risks she decided, were not worth taking.
I had effectively pull the plug out of the LSS, when I just had to demonstrated how I could forget that handphones can't swim.
So.
Here's to at least a few months of survival without a means of contacting anyone, anytime, anywhere. (I am sure mum would find SS lessons very interesting indeed.)

Cheers.
*bitter laugh*

Saturday, September 02, 2006

I thank God for the teachers.
All the teachers in my life.

I believe when someone is one's teacher, he/she is one's teacher for life.
Well, we never stop learning from them do we?
Even now, when I am down, lost or discouraged,
I'd seek some time out by myself,
and take out from my mind, a piece of what a certain teacher has said.
I draw strength and resolution from their words that always seem to have been said with the knowledge of their usefulness and applicability to future times.

These are the people who mean so much to me.
And they are not just teachers---school teachers.
If by definition, a teacher is someone who has taught you, or someone you have learned from, then many are teachers of mine.
My mum, my dad, God, my brother, my sister, and I reckon even the kindly school janitor of Cedar.

He used to talk to me about life, his philosophies, and the bright future that lay ahead of me.
I remember how I'd knew he was coming by the sound of clanging keys that heralded his arrival. He was this eccentric old man, walked with a hobble, had eyes clouded with cataract, and yet could see beyond the present, the surface, and the person I appeared to be.

He was, and still is, a very special teacher to me, kept, and still keeps me going through the tougest times...

I remember I used to be the last to leave the classroom everyday, and he would wait for me, cheer me on...
He'd talk to me about how we must all work hard, "hao hao du shu..." he always says.
I never failed to be moved.

Teachers.
I begin to realise how much we owe to them.
Then there's granddad, and grandma, so many people I owe so much to.
Some I will never get to thank.
All I'd never be who I am without.

Here, let me assume an empiricist note.
I once watched NG (National Geographic), and it was about how animals higher up the intelligence hierarchy, have all learned to pass down knowledge from one generation to another. It featured a kingfisher who has learned to fish by picking up and throwing breadcrumbs from the sidewalk, into the lake to attract fishes so as to catch them.
However, such an intelligent behaviour would be lost with the death of this kingfisher, because the Ceryle Acryon (kingfisher) do not educate the younger generations.

Education= knowledge upon knowledge.
Human progression comes only with education.

Education.
Originates from the Latin word--- Educarie, which means to "draw out."
Aristotle was a wise man.
Indeed, education is not so much filling up empty brains with ideas and facts, as if you were pumping air into a balloon.
True education is about drawing out.
Drawing out the best in each one of us, revealing the unique beauty already inherent,
and teaching us how to use that beauty, for the good of the society and the world.
Education allows the flowers within each of us to blossom, so that the world is a beautiful garden.

God bless the gardeners.

"A great teacher has little external history to record,
his life goes over into others' life.
These great men are the pillars of the intimate strcuture of our schools,
they are more essential than its stones or beams,
and will continue to be a kindling force
and a revealing power in our lives. "


-The Emeror's club( my favourite movie)


To all my beacons of light,

Happy teachers Day.